The past two weeks of my life have been momentous. I began uploading brief snippets of my compositions onto TikTok and just a few hours ago I had hit 10,000 followers. I am in disbelief that that many people care enough about my music to follow me. I have received so many warm comments it's overwhelming. I'm still in shock that people actually like my music. I feel so incredibly grateful. This all feels like a dream. Prior to these last couple of weeks, I received little recognition for my work. I am still very grateful for the few who complimented and took the time out of their day to listen to my pieces, but I always felt like I would never succeed as a composer because I wasn't good enough. I despised my compositions, and literally burned countless manuscripts out of pure self-hatred.
On the 3rd of March, 11:56 PM, I sold my very first score - the 1st Raindrop Waltz in B Minor. I cannot believe that someone else actually cares for my music enough to be willing to spend money on purchasing the score. I am completely overwhelmed by feelings of happiness I have never experienced before. While I compose music because it gives my life meaning and allows me to convey myself in manners that aren't possible through words, seeing other people enjoy my work gives me so much hope as an artist, and I will forever be grateful for that. This is a moment I will always remember. Thank you, Kiana.
On other matters, I am completely swamped with the 28 credits I'm currently enrolled in. The past few assignments I worked on were turned in just moments before the due date. I need to learn how to manage my time better. Besides school, I want to finish notating my set of nocturnes and publish them. My new piano is said to arrive in one day, which means that I will soon be able to record my pieces on a piano that is not only in tune but also has fully functioning keys and pedals. I am very excited for that! Lastly, I want to finish writing my first symphony and publish it. When I do publish it, I believe that it will be my greatest work for quite some time. I have been obsessed with the main theme for far too long. It needs to be completed.
